Unanswered prayers

I'm up late and I'm not sure why.

So I'll write. 

Do you ever wonder why our prayers don't get answered or is it that we are just impatient so we think they are unanswered? 

You see, Makayla has this problem. A drooling problem. Some days she doesn't drool at all, some she only drools a little bit, and some she drools a lot. And I mean, a lot. Today was one of those days. 

It always seems to be worse when her allergies have flared up and she's stopped up. It's just bad. Real bad. 

Reason for her drooling? Simply just her adenoids. They are too big. 

Why haven't we had them removed? Well, it cost a lot of money. We have had to cancel her surgery twice. 

We have prayed. And prayed. And prayed. 

Either for the finances to come in or for her to be healed.

I don't understand it sometimes. I feel so bad for her. I'm embarrassed for her. Kids wonder why she drools like a baby. People ask me if she is teething. No! She is three, soon to be four! She has all her teeth. 

I know she won't even remember this when she is older and I'm grateful for that. And seriously, I don't even think it phases her that her friends get grossed out when they get drool on them. 

But it hurts my heart. 

This may seem like a ridiculous thing to seem to get upset about, but it was just one of those days. And here I am, writing and trying to just lay it all out.

Maybe I am being impatient and thinking that God should have just let the money come in, but the thought of her having surgery and being put under, honestly, scares me to death. And her being in pain for days after.... I just don't think I'm ready for that, yet. 

or Why hasn't He healed her completely yet? I just don't understand. I know God knows no time. So what is days, weeks, months, even years to us.... probably just seems seconds to Him. 

I have the faith. I do. 

So why are we going through this? 

I pray we find out soon. 

"His ways are higher than ours!"

-M